Anxiety Vs the Truth

Mixed up view
of the world;
I know what is true
but it won’t fold
to the curve
of my mixed up thoughts
causing vision so blurred.

So I speak out loud to my body,
“It’s okay, all in hand
you just need to understand
it might feel this way
for a week or 10 days
but there’s nothing more to do
and I know what is true.”

But still, hands shake,
still, soul aches,
still, I lie awake.
Soon, the truth seems like lies
as I feel tears form at my eyes,
so what do I surmise?
I feel like 1 part Lady Macbeth
mixed with 2 parts, “Are you quite finished yet?”
with my “Out damned spot!” style of freaking out,
when I know the truth and it always comes out!

My favourite thing about the Truth is that it sets you free,
allows you to be who you really ought to be,
shows your mixed up brain
the thoughts it ought to contain,
breaks the toxic rhythm
of my body’s toxic symptoms,
brings things back into focus,
clearing my vision.

I know the Truth
so I cling to the Truth;
when it hurts,
at my worst,
when I can’t put myself first
‘cause the Truth always works,
I sing of the Truth!

I know the Truth,
so I speak the Truth,
proclaim the Truth,
own the Truth,
train my brain
to meditate
on Your Word
because the Truth always works!

I know the Truth
but do I really know it?
Is it revelation to me?
So I go over it again
and again
until the pain
in my brain
subsides
the hole
in my soul
is empty of lies
and the only thing that remains, besides,
is the Truth of Your Word
and Your Voice in my mind,
“I am the Way, the Truth and the Life”.