The epiphany I had whilst cleaning the kitchen sink today!

Some may find it in the drink
I found it in my kitchen sink
when scum removed, something I see
my own face staring back at me

I always thought I knew that face
I'd been with her from place to place
I'd searched my soul, and knew my heart
I'd grown from that girl at the start

But after change, that came with growth
Not every change could fit the mould
the shape that some expect of me
I could not be, what I had been

I faced rejection, I was ashamed
Should I put this new girl back away?
Was I now a monster? How would I know?
For all my strength, what was to show?

I made a mask to hide behind,
a farce that I had peace of mind
I even had myself deceived,
did not see my insecurity.


But when I made my journey home
from travels that I'd made alone
and found happiness in being with friends
and another half, soul on the mend
I couldn't place the pain I felt
or why my heart was racked with guilt
and then it hit me yesterday -
I let self-doubt get in the way!

Everything I'd learned in the past
About a girl that's fit to last
who draws on strength from High Above
and strives to walk the Way of Love
had been clean swept off the floor
when hate walked through an open door
I let the devil dance on my pain
and forgot that cleansing comes from rain

Now when the dirty sink is clean
and I spy a person in that gleam
that only comes from elbow grease
(or maybe if you're using bleach)
I see this is a parody
of what this whole thing means for me...

Yes, I still know myself,
Not perfect but always gaining wealth
of the most desirable kind
by keeping Father God in mind.
And does He not grant my worth?
I'm one in kind on this whole earth
I have a value, loved by He,
why would I doubt what He taught me?

And yes, just like this shiny sink,
I might need cleaning, a lot I think!
But it's the many, many cracks in pots
that let light stream out such a lot

So I'll embrace this woman who,
in Jesus is made brand new,
and won't believe the worldly lies
that it's people who decide
the worth of each and every being;
based on what we do, or how we seem.

No, this is my epiphany,
I'm good enough, just being me.